Unbearable Suffering: A Personal Struggle With the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a overcast weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new class, when a intense pain sprang behind my right eye. This was followed by quick stabs, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the discomfort eased and then returned with greater force. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I took aspirin, but the agony remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared repeatedly that autumn, and once more in spring, soon forming an yearly cycle. September and October were the most severe, then the late winter. I could predict the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-blown pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP finally referred me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches typically begin with intense discomfort around a single eye that persists up to three hours.

About 1 in 1000 people are affected by the condition, and males are more often affected. Cluster headaches usually start with abrupt, excruciating agony around a single eye that peaks within minutes and continues for as long as three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or facial sweating. There exists the episodic form, which arrives in periodic cycles; some patients have chronic cluster headaches, characterized by the absence of long symptom-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the severity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or other conditions. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients reported suicidal thoughts during bouts; the figure dropped to four percent when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Drinking in her adolescence, like many triggers, made things more intense. After having sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often interpreted her attacks as intoxicated episodes. Understanding eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to absences during episodes. Her breakthrough identification came in 2002 at a national neurology center.

Nevertheless, the failure to organize daily activities around erratic pain took its toll. She particularly hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented across the ages. “The earliest account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the topic. They attributed the disease to an evil spirit who attacked his victims' heads.

Historical healing records suggest bizarre treatments for what some observers would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, severe headache was recognised as a separate condition, with treatments ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more folk cures.

It was a European doctor who provided the first detailed description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache happening and vanishing daily at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally recognised by international medical societies in 1988. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key artery which supplies blood to the brain. Prominent experts in treating the condition note this.

In the late 1990s, scientists published the findings of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and observed the attacks in a brain scanner. The results, featured in a prominent journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered.

Despite such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's attacks started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he had four surgeries before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a doctor researched his complaints.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosing and managing happen because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other common headache conditions, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A thorough history is essential: on which side do symptoms occur? For how long? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Certain features such as tearing, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to specialist centers. But a lot of first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has experienced the condition for the majority of her life, although she has been free from an episode since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth pulled because dental professionals misinterpreted her pain. She believes the dental profession still need greater awareness. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was she who replied. I remember calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring volunteer guided them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack eased.

Official guidance on management advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by injection. No tablets or opioids should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the bouts of well-known people.

But leading specialists believe the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer treatment pathway and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The length of the cycle determines the treatment.” Short cycles with occasional attacks are handled with abortive treatment alone. More prolonged or more severe bouts require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the side of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve activity.

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Shawn Thompson
Shawn Thompson

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